thirst

“as the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. my soul thirsts for God, for the living God. when can i go and meet with God?” psalm 42.1

thirst buried for a long time is surfacing in this darkness, and whether it’s for this one night or a new season opening before me, i don’t know. all i know is that the chasm in me that i’ve let anger flow through, praise and worship has rushed through, ushering hunger, instead.

“deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.” v. 7

the hunger in me is so deep, urgent, pressing. it’s hunger and thirst, together, all in one.

“even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief.” proverb 14.13

the sweetness of the Lord brings joy and laughter- born of a genuine sweetness and purity. this is what i am hungry for: freedom, and the wellspring of my heart to be replenished with living water, drinkable, clear, clean… i desire to meet with God.

it’s the sweetness of Christ which invites me to ask forgiveness for sin, let go, and drink deeply. right now, i’m still thirsting. i guess the fulness of my hunger is still being uncovered. bitter water inside me is being flushed out by worship. this might take a while.

in the meantime, i invite you to join me in worship today, to let the river wash out any aching, bitterness in your souls.