broken

In the darkness of the night, while falling asleep, the Lord whispered to me:

he wants to love me.

it’s simple, isn’t it? so clear. he wants to love me- but, i want to change. i want to be broken, so that i can change (results-oriented, grown-up thinking, right?) and be a better person, and love others like i know i’m supposed to do, and serve and produce good things. i want to change so that i can better myself, and finally feel a satisfaction with the life i have constructed.

but he just wants to love me.

the depth of the uncomplicated love of Christ astonishes me today.