GOOD MORNING!
while the sun rises and before a cold front begins to cloud the sky, i am focusing on the very words of the Lord Jesus Christ. last night, we just layed there on our bed and read the words of Jesus straight from the instruction book. it was so cleansing to read out loud. i’m really praying for my father’s health these days; for his heart. i’ve been too caught up in anxiety. the weight of the world has a way of finding its way to my shoulders. isn’t that just the way so many of us walk around? my prayers this morning started out from that awful, crowded place of worry.
but then as soon as i stopped, realizing what i was doing, i opened my mouth and found these words to fall out: “thank you.” i repeated the words and they leaped from my lips, wanting to be said. tears fell. weight lifted. it’s his kindness, oh, his kindness! i’m turning from my thoughts and facing his unmatchable kindnesses to me. i got overwhelmed with worry but now, i want to be overwhelmed by good. i thought worry was the cry of my heart, but now all i can say are those words:
Thank you God.
i think we all tend to fall into the trap of leadership and growth processes which lie to us and put us on a path of tightly structured planning… and the child inside us gets stuffed into a corner, dying to be free, dying to trust, dying to sing.
hey friends, we’re just kids.
that’s all we have to be. we’re not saviors. we’re not shell answer-people. so when we worry in our hearts… when doubt grips us and we survey the seas of alternative ways of doing life- we are turned back to ourselves and faced with who Jesus is and what he has done for us. we are presented with what it’s all about:
“because i live, you will live also. in that day you will know that i am in my Father, and you in me, and i in you. he who has my commandments and keeps them is the one who loves me; and he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and i will love him and will disclose myself to him.” john 14
Father in Heaven, draw us out with your kindness. lead us to obey, Holy Spirit!
